Day 4 - 5 Charms

I woke up with food on the brain. But then I sometimes did before. This time I feel like a computer, already counting points, my mind racing along the items in the refrigerator. The advantage is, there is nothing in there which could do great damage to my diet. Of course I could eat it all, but I have never had any bulimic tendencies.

So I have just put down what I intend to eat during the day. It works best I find. I make breakfast a little feast of plenty; fruit, cheese, crackers, yoghurt. It even includes some of the stilton I did not have the heart to throw away. But that is the good part of the Weight Watchers Programme, ANYTHING goes. What the points do is make me aware that ANYTHING comes with a price. Stilton is a lot of points compared to the cheese and liver I am eating as well.

How do I feel? Good, a very, very faint headache, but then I am also really hungry, so I am guessing my blood sugar level is low. Years of reading about diets and the effect of food have made me a 50% expert on the subject. My stomach is in a state of shock at not having to digest food remnants from the night before, as I only had a handful of cherry tomatoes after nine (went to bed at 1 AM).

I am also curious how all this healthy food will affect my skin. And as such prive or disprove, in my case that the choice of food is detrimental to the human skin. Oddly enough I AM noting a difference. I'll see.

Time to feed the hungry mass, Breakfast at Willows! Enjoy your food, don't overeat!

Too late! It is 9 o'clock PM, and only now do I eat. Question is why? Well, simple, I doddled at work, got home late, and by then was tired and just plonked down. WRONG, should have made the salade I am eating first, and then do the "plonk"thing.

I am eating a salade, with smoked chicken, and lots of delicious green things, and tomatoes. I will stay up a little later, to give my system a change to digest what I am eating.

I am telling more and more people about this blogger. At the moment I am so sure I will succeed I amd not afraid to share the journey. I find I lool forward to writing these little posts, and evenmore look forward to breakfast! *grins*

Sleep well, no eating in the evening!

Day 3 - 5 Charms

Anyone would start on day ONE. I don't! Says something about me, does it not?

I procrastinate.............and in losing weight I would say I done so for the last 25 years. Once in a while the little flame inside me that lights the "diet motivation fire" flickers and makes me feel guilty. But show me something nice to eat, and I'll ignore it with ease.

Happy, sad, angry, tired, irritated, driven, lazy...every emotion is linked to food. In that I am like millions of people. It is a remnant from my childhood, a happy one, where I lacked nothing, except the realisation by my parents that a fat daughter was not a good thing. BUT having said that, there comes a point when pointing the finger at others, read parents, is a petty gesture, one of a coward who will not admit that from the age of 18ish I was strong, wise, and adult enough to change the nasty habit of using food to cope with everyday life.

And so I am now on day 3. Not yet brave enough to admit here how much I weigh, but lets just say to darn flippin' much. I am very much beyond the 100 kilo mark that I can say. For the last 6 months or so the thought of doing the healthy thing, changing my dietary intake, and losing weight at the same time, has been on my mind. And last Wednesday 2 may 2007 I attended a Weight Watcher's meeting in my home town of The Hague. I had been there before, some 9 years ago, but from what I remember I was not as motivated as I am now. This blog is part of the motivation "thang"; sharing the experience with strangers on line.

Now let it be noted, I am NOT an unhappy woman. Quite the contrary, I have much of what I would wish in my life, and what I do not have is still attainable and possible. So life is good, very good. Having said that, I have no stamina, have problems lacing my shoes, summers make me sweat like an otter, and buying clothes is a drag. In short I am overweight, too much body fat encases me. And it has to go! The only one who can do that is me. And so here it is, my Blogger Willowishesless, less weight that is.

Now as for the heading of this little confession: "Day three - 5 beads" , what is all that about? I have been lusting to buy myself a pandora bracelet. It is the modern equivalent to the old fashioned charm bracelet. A simple stunningly beautiful silver (or gold) bracelet, which can take up to 25 charms - silver, silver/gold, adorned with gemstones, glass -. I bought one, deciding it could be an incentive to start my diet regime. And so I wear a silver bracelet, with 5 charms; my astrological sign, Gemini; a little dolphin curled around the silver Pandora bracelet cord; a small tea cup and saucer, I do so love my tea; a four leaf closer, for luck, lost of luck; and in the middle a small gift package with an adoring bow on top of it.



These past three days, day in, day out, the weight of the bracelet reminds me of the promise I made to myself to eat healthy, and loose weight. When I shop and I reach out to take something out of a rack or off a shelve, the motion of the bracelet and beads on my wrist reminds me again. It is a quiet watchdog that I only take off to shower. Every 3,5 kilo's I lose allows me to buy a new charm. You will find them proudly featured on this blogger as time progresses.

So far the hardest thing I find, is not eating after 8 PM. I am so used to keep my jaws moving every minute of the day. And even though I do that now too, but now with healthy things, eating after 8 PM is a no no-no matter what I wish to put in my mouth. I did transgress, I had four of those baby tomatoes. I think my stomach can deal with that, digestion wise.

How often you will find me posting? I don't know, I don't make promises other than that I will succeed this time!

Beddybye time for me, enjoy your food, don't overeat yourself!